Progress and Setbacks

Well, today was the first time I've really lost control of my eating in about a week. That's pretty good progress for me, since I've had plenty of opportunities to dive in since I last blogged about my goal.
However, today was a difficult day for no particular reason. I guess I didn't sleep well last night, which always puts me in an off mood at the start of the day. Still, not much reason to lose control and binge my way through the day. It started around lunch time when I discovered a half-eaten dark chocolate mint bar in my desk drawer. I've been very dutifully nibbling away on this beast for about two weeks now, and I still had half left. It's one of those mega-sized monstrosities that always tempt me in the snacks aisle at the grocery store. I go in looking for Wheat Thins and come out with heaven only knows what. This one, however, was given to me by Victoria, a pretty girl in fifth period. I've been savoring it, but for some reason I snapped during fifth period and snarfed down the entire remaining half. I'm pretty sure I looked like cookie monster while I was doing it, but I didn't care.
After work the situation went from bad to worse. I had to go to my district ESOL teachers' meeting, and I was now tired, stressed, annoyed, and feeling a little guilty. For me, this is an epic combination of factors that nearly always results in a thousand-calorie-plus mack fest. And, true to form, I ended up eating 9 doughnut holes, half a gingerbread bar, and about 3 ounces of cheese with crackers.
That left me in a really bad place going home. I had plans to utilize the loaf of freshly-baked bread that was given to me as a birthday treat from the lunch ladies for dinner tonight. I'm kind of off bread for the past 3 years, but I can't resist freshly baked white bread. It's like kryptonite. And I knew just what to do with it- French Onion Soup. The king of all soups. It's actually pretty healthy, considering. I put the breaks on and only had one bowl, also. I skipped the accompanying sandwich that hubby requested too, but overall today was a crap day, and now I have to start over with my one-year pledge.
I don't know how, but I just have to find SOME way to make it through the school day without feeling completely wiped out and drained. I hate coming home and feeling like the only thing that will restore my health and vitality is copious quantities of starchy, sugary, fatty treats. There has to be SOMETHING else, right? Or do I have to quit my job if I want to be healthy.
Anyway, I'm going to cut it off here. I'm in a really unpleasant place right now and I want to find something positive to end my day with. Perhaps this will cheer me up?